Saturday, 17 April 2010
L O V E = C R A P.
I know, I sound like an utter emo. But it's very true, I never want to see another boy as long as I live. Which is difficult because I go to a public school... So, there's like fifteen of the teenage dirtbags in my class. There isn't a reason in particular, just my overgrowing pain of the boy I like not knowing I exist. I'm constantly getting people saying shit like, OMG! You are so pretty! Really? Then why doesn't HE notice then? It just doesn't make sense to me, I keep getting depressed about it and it keeps getting me down. Maybe, I'm not pretty at all? Not even a pinch? Maybe they all lie to me. I dunno anymore. I want to give up, lay on the floor and stare up at the stars and wish for nights on end for it all to get better. Just once.
I need to confess something, it keeps biting pieces away from me and I can't seem to hold it in any longer. I self harmed a month ago. I just, felt a moment of weakness, it was... scary. I just got hold of something sharp. I cried for a good twenty minutes after but didn't scrub the blood away. Why? I have no idea. My life doesn't make sense anymore, it's just something I follow. A routine. Wake up, Eat, School, Home, Eat, Sleep. Not hard.
Sorry for the emo post, I needed to get it all off my chest.
Jazzy xx
Wednesday, 7 April 2010
Hey look! A picture of Jazzy!
Sunday, 28 March 2010
Just another bit of work from little ol' me...
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Tuesday, 23 March 2010
A very short thought...
Sunday, 14 March 2010
Hah, feeling random much? I'm really bored at the moment and realised I hadn't blogged in a while so I came onto here. These past weeks have been, odd to say the least. Mollie totally sprung a surprise sorry on me, Danielle and Kara. It almost made me cry how she totally blamed herself. And smacked down on Jess as an added bonus. Excellent or what? I got into a bit of trouble in English the other day, well me and Barbara got into a bit of trouble. We had a tickle fight and a teacher spotted me laughing, she threatened to move me and Barbara. It was fairly funny though :) Then the next day I had a pen fight with Tom B (Not the other gay one- Tom L) and Kara. As much as i've washed and scrubbed the marks still won't come off, which is really annoying. I think Tom's pen was permanent.
Well, I guess I should give a proper update -
School-
Crap as always. No change there I guess. Same old boring thing every day, English, Maths, More Maths, More Maths... You get the idea. I have done none of my homework for the upcoming week, and that's a bit crap since I have five pieces. Or possibly more :| I really have stopped caring about homework, Simon doesn't trust me anyway whether I say I do my homework or not. For example-
Me; Done aaaaaall my homework! Well except for a piece or two that's due next week.
Simon; Hm, let me check your planner!
Me; >.<
Boys and love crap-
No. Just no. It's stupid and boring. And boys smell icky anyway.
Anyways, I've gotten bored so I must leave you now!
Gimme a Buzz!
Jazzy xx
Saturday, 6 March 2010
I dislike Egypt more than lifts >|
Tuesday, 2 March 2010
Tuesday, 16 February 2010
Sorry for typo's- These nails are not meant for typing...
Tuesday, 9 February 2010
I'm not a pervert okay?! T_T
I really do like him though, the thing is that one of my friends like him aswell and you know that always means trouble? So for her I pretended I didn't like him anymore so she could slobber over him all she liked. Sounds gross I know but trust me, i'm weirder in person. Thats how kind I am XD I let my friend have the guy, I just hope I don't rebound onto a year seven. Unless! It's that really hawt blonde one...
Joking aside for now. CRAP. Have I done my History homework? Yes I have, phew. Miss Herratt, my History teacher, would skin me alive if I forgot my homework. Or didn't actually do it for that matter. Hah, i'm so damn stupid. As i'm typing this i'm also looking for my phone which has suddenly strangely dissapeared into thin air. Well it hasn't I didn't actually see it dissapear but you get my drift.
This may be an odd subject to bring up but have you ever felt like you just wanted something to yourself? Just one thing? For example, your an emo and all of your mates are chavs therefore you want to be the only emo? Don't think of yourself as a mean, selfish person it's called INDEPENDANCE! And for a while now, i've had none. Well to start i've been the independant one but it's just a few friends seem to copy everything I do. I'll do a small map to show what I mean-
I land on The Twilight Saga;
My mate does too.
Fine, Twilights good. I understand.
I land on Hello Kitty;
My mate suddenly has a fair bit of Hello Frickin' Kitty merchandise.
Rubbing it in my face much?
But no, that's fine too...
I land on Death Note;
My mate does too.
OKAY. THATS TAKING THE CRAB.
What? It is... I'm off onto Roleplayer Guild now! And for anyone who doesn't know me on here- It's AmayaIto! Yeah, i'm thirteen. Problem? I didn't think so -_-
Gimme a buzz!
Jazzy xx <3
Friday, 5 February 2010
My obsession with vampires- REKINDLED!
As i'm writing this it's the adverts of the brand new series Vampire Diaries! It is just amazing, the guys in it are so fit! I love Damen he's proper sexy, actual drool worthy. His face just amazes me, damn he's fine! Anyway, thats how my love for vampires has become bigger than ever. Since New Moon ended with that gay ending I have just been dissapointed with vamp's ever since, i've even started watching parodys of Twilight. Oh god there hilarious. NO! SOMEONE IN VAMPIRE DIARIES JUST STOLE MY BOYFRIEND! FFS. Anyway backing off my hatred for that blonde who just stole him I have hatred of many other boys I would love to share but not right now.
I was in a panto last night and I actually wasn't nervous? It's really weird, lately i've just had bucket loads of confidence and things. It just doesn't make sense to me, meh. Oh well. I'm so bored so I might just leave now, i'm sorry this is short but I am just bored as.
Gimme a buzz!
Jazzy xx
Monday, 25 January 2010
Manga! And Anime! And um... Other Animey/Mangy things ^^'
Hey'all!
So there hasn't been much going on except we are now officially no longer friends with Jess and Mollie. Such a shame I know. My other friend Kara has been reading my blog now so i'm happy that it's finally taken off but I do understand I have to be careful with the people I trust to read it for example Jess is never coming anywhere near this thing.
So as you may have guessed from our lovely title up there i'm going to have a little chat about my lovely manga/anime. I do love Death Note, it is just so friggin' awesome! I have an unhealthy crush on Ryuk though I mean isn't he just sexy? Don't worry, joke. I do like L and Light though, yummy much? While I was searching the interweb (thank you Danielle for the word) I came across this hilarious picture of the Death Note characters buuuuuuut! In chibi form, take a look.
Pretty damn awesome right? And yes... that is a detective trying to kill a shinigami with A GUN. Pointless? I think so. I do like Fruits Basket because the idea of the Zodiac is appealing to an asian such as myself. I have a big crush on Kyo from Fruits Basket aswell, damn his cuteness. I'm quite tired but don't wanna go bed. Seriously as you become a teen you seem to love sleep somewhat a hell of alot more. I think I might make this entry a short one as not much has been happening this week which is a bit irritating. Meh.
Okay this is a veeeery special shoutout to some people, this isn't a particularly nice one either-
Danielle... If you don't get Blogger I might stab you with my fingernails tomorrow and Kara you've got to get one aswell BIACK! :@
Anyways, hope you all had a good week and remember-
Gimme A Buzz;
Jazzy xx
Tuesday, 19 January 2010
Chicken Corma! I-I mean Calma...
Jeez, I've missed you guys. I been busy with homework and stuff so it does get pretty hectic from time to time but i'm here now aye'? No i'm not Scottish. Anyways normal girly stuff has been happening but our little friend (PFFT, yeah okay) Jess has been causing more trubz.
So as you probably don't know I have my little group of friends- Danielle, Kara, Mollie Ann and Jess. Now Jess isn't like a normal friend, Jess enjoys stabbing people in the back constantly and dragging others away. Mollie Ann and I went to the same Primary school but Jess uses Mollie for her own little team. At the moment we are in the 'OHMYGOSH! I hate Danielle, Kara and Jasmine so much' phase. She is a friend skipper. So someone from Jess' last school called Corma, I mean Calma has come to Abbeyfield (My School) and know Jess is all buddy-buddy let's paint each others nails crap with her. Ew. I mean that's not bad! But the thing is in Music today her and Mollie went in a partner originally to write their songs but these guys (Danny, Chris and Oh look Tom ¬_¬) were in a three. Miss Smith said TWO'S OR THREE'S but Danny went up to Miss and said. "Oh Miss can we go in a five?" "Hm. Okay then." Cue me and Kara feeling very upset and left out.
Yes you heard. Instead of Mollie and Jess being nice friends and coming with us they went with-
Danny- Psycho
Chris- Complete Twitface. (You've heard of him before) AAAND-
Tom- MY EX?!?
Jess likes to steal boys. Its a hobby of hers. Danielle wasn't here today otherwise we would've had a go at them but off that subject. ^.^"
I hope everyones okay and lemme just do a shoutout to Kara. HEY KARA. Ta daa. As you may of realized in my last blog or so I called Danielle an orangutan or some kind of ape. For doing that she has bugged me ever since so- I'm very sorry Danielle (Chimpanzee). All better now? I thought so. I have the strangest feeling that al the cats on our street have upped and died. I see none no more, it's really strange. Meh. I have my second set of Cervical Cancer Jabs tomorrow and to be honest i'm not that worried. It's only a little prick ya' know? Anyways I'd better go now or Roleplayer Guild will automatically log me out... am I on Stardoll? Probably lemme check my tabs... YUP. So remember add- BunnayBee
Gimme A Buzz ;)
Jazzy xx
Monday, 11 January 2010
Stardoll! (And other sad girly fads i'm ashamed to be a part of.)
Okay so last week I did promise you a few things your probably not going to get today so, ha shame on you. I had my friend view my blog the other day and she said it was pretty good. Hooray. But I actually got a bit worried because as I flicked through the blogs on here I realised that most of them were for parents and their newborns which I found creepy since i'm a teenage girl... not a newborn unless you didn't realise. I actually am enjoying blogging and i've kept to my promise of posting every few days. Brownies code of honour. Even though i've never been and never will go to the damned society of Brownies. Eugh. That is one of the many girly fads I don't understand? Who would want to dress up in canarie yellow and poo, yes poo, brown to attend camp and get shouted at by verbally retarded leaders? To be honest, it's pretty awful.
I will admit I myself have been subjected to many girly thing's over the years, girls brigade, Tamagotchi etc. But the best one for me probably has to be Stardoll! I mean why spend real money dolling yourself up and spending the money on yourself when you can spend it on a virtual piece of, she's not even plastic so I don't know what to say actually. But that doesn't defeat my object. No way, Ho say. Ah, made up sayings rock. I will admit (with my head hung in shame) I do in fact have a Stardoll account D: BunnayBabe- Add me ;) My friend gave me the idea for the nickname so do not ask me about it, she's pretty crazy.
So school's been okay I guess. Tom and Chris still being twootots. Tom said to Danielle the other day 'Oh my gosh. I hate Jasmine, she's so irritating. I hate her. Eugh, she always annoys me.' Then he comes up to my group of friends and goes round us all going, and this made me laugh. 'Have I done something to annoy you.' Guess what I said. No, it didn't contain swearing. I said and this isn't really funny but MEH- 'Nooooo, of course not.' Yeah so yeah. I as mentioned last week did try to get the dancing penguins for my friend Danielle (There's your shout out you baboon :D ) but unfortunately didn't. Sorry. But until next time-
Gimme a buzz!
Jazzy xx
Friday, 8 January 2010
Gimme a Buzz
I live in the rainy area of the Earth named England. Oh my gosh, could the name get any more boring? Anyway, our summers are usually mild and our winters mean... very mean but at the moment we have snow outside, it's not snowing like now but it was two nights ago and theres still a few inches on the ground, what does that tell you about the temperature outside if it hasn't melted? It is, to be honest, around -1 or -2 now I should think but at night i've heard it drops to around -7 so ouch. Any of you hear about 2012? How the hell can that happen when were getting snow like we've never had before! It must be getting colder! Don't judge my theories i'm not one for Science, even though i'm pretty smart. Just to mention I hate Maths. How about we move on?
I do write with a pen in my other journal which is a Hello Kitty one (HELLO KITTY FTW.) And just like Georgia Nicholson I have a lot of made up phrases such as-
Almighty gelly- Vaseline
Yum God- Uber cuteness
Sex God- UBER FITNESS
Cottoned off- Annoyed
Northy- Northampton
Yes, i'm still talking about myself. Ew, I feel selfish. Oh well tis' my blog. Buzz. My friend's are probably the maddest bunch of loon's you will ever meet. I swear, they confuse me sometimes. I did have some guy friends but for about a month now one of them has been dodgy with me. His name is Tom. Your probably thinking Aw damn. She's now going to rant about how much she hates him. No, oddly i'm not. I'm simply going to say what has happened (so far) and let you decide yourselves eh'?
We have been together but I ended it because I didn't feel anything since people were pressuring going. Aw go out with him and all that crap. But we talked it over and everything was okay. So we text like any normal mates, I also constantly text my friend Danielle who i'm on the phone to now so it's not awkward like Oh my gosh! I must only text him, he is the awesome one! No. And this girl earlier that day had said to me she likes Tom and could I ask him out for her I was like sure. So I text him saying 'Guess who fancies you!' And he's still got this weird thing for me at this point in time so he texts back going 'Who?' And I say 'INSERT GIRLS NAME HERE' And then he has to ruin it by going 'Oh, I thought it was you : (' Thats when it started. I texted back saying 'Sorry fancy someone else' He starts asking me questions, I don't tell him who it is then he stops talking to me. Yay. I go into school the next day and he's not talking to me or any of my friends, we all used to be close and stuff but oh well. I would let it slide except for the fact he made Danielle cry the other day becuase him and this nerd Chris (you'll hear about him alot aswell) tag teamed up on her on the way home from school and made her cry so I went into school the next day and shouted at them. Danielle wasn't there, she couldn't get there cuz' snow. Then they started blaming me saying I was the one ignoring Tom, yeah okay. Gaylords.
Oh my gosh. I'm so deeply sorry you had to listen to that. As a treat i'm going to tell you what i'm going to put in my blog next time. Some issues from magazines that you guys might be facing and give REAL advice, factfiles on all the people featured in this blog and some random dancing penguins for you to enjoy. (Maybe not the last one) And just so you all know I won't be doing this blog every day, maybe every other day? I dunno but have fun.
And please, gimme a buzz : )
Jazzy xx




