Jazzy xx
Saturday, 17 April 2010
L O V E = C R A P.
*Dramatic sigh*
I know, I sound like an utter emo. But it's very true, I never want to see another boy as long as I live. Which is difficult because I go to a public school... So, there's like fifteen of the teenage dirtbags in my class. There isn't a reason in particular, just my overgrowing pain of the boy I like not knowing I exist. I'm constantly getting people saying shit like, OMG! You are so pretty! Really? Then why doesn't HE notice then? It just doesn't make sense to me, I keep getting depressed about it and it keeps getting me down. Maybe, I'm not pretty at all? Not even a pinch? Maybe they all lie to me. I dunno anymore. I want to give up, lay on the floor and stare up at the stars and wish for nights on end for it all to get better. Just once.
I need to confess something, it keeps biting pieces away from me and I can't seem to hold it in any longer. I self harmed a month ago. I just, felt a moment of weakness, it was... scary. I just got hold of something sharp. I cried for a good twenty minutes after but didn't scrub the blood away. Why? I have no idea. My life doesn't make sense anymore, it's just something I follow. A routine. Wake up, Eat, School, Home, Eat, Sleep. Not hard.
Sorry for the emo post, I needed to get it all off my chest.
Jazzy xx
I know, I sound like an utter emo. But it's very true, I never want to see another boy as long as I live. Which is difficult because I go to a public school... So, there's like fifteen of the teenage dirtbags in my class. There isn't a reason in particular, just my overgrowing pain of the boy I like not knowing I exist. I'm constantly getting people saying shit like, OMG! You are so pretty! Really? Then why doesn't HE notice then? It just doesn't make sense to me, I keep getting depressed about it and it keeps getting me down. Maybe, I'm not pretty at all? Not even a pinch? Maybe they all lie to me. I dunno anymore. I want to give up, lay on the floor and stare up at the stars and wish for nights on end for it all to get better. Just once.
I need to confess something, it keeps biting pieces away from me and I can't seem to hold it in any longer. I self harmed a month ago. I just, felt a moment of weakness, it was... scary. I just got hold of something sharp. I cried for a good twenty minutes after but didn't scrub the blood away. Why? I have no idea. My life doesn't make sense anymore, it's just something I follow. A routine. Wake up, Eat, School, Home, Eat, Sleep. Not hard.
Sorry for the emo post, I needed to get it all off my chest.
Jazzy xx
Wednesday, 7 April 2010
Hey look! A picture of Jazzy!
Did this for the sake of Roleplayer Guild :|
So if you guys are out there...
I hate you D:
I love you really.
Jazzy xx
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)